Breathing...accomplishing

October passed me by and it seems to me that there's still something else to happen. I mean... of course this month had its issues. One more time... a lot of acting, a lot of speaking for no one to hear... a lot of engaging with nothing at all. The same overtalking, overspeaking, 'underthinking'... that's usual.

But... looking over my shoulders, that's something that keeps fallowing me, wherever I go... wherever I look. No... of course I have my stockers, but... it's something a little bit different... is like that idea that the biggest day of you life, or the most import one, or the saddest one, they suddenly passe your path when you really don't expect it. It seems that no matter what you do... what you plan... something suddenly takes you breath away... weather in a good way or not.

The thing is... we keep trying to catch out our dreams, our goals... but, we forget that sometimes, even if that sounds a little bit weird... our goals and accomplishments, at least the smaller ones, they just knock on our doors, asking to be enjoyed. Yeah, I know... It sounds naive... maybe this is just me. But I'm willing, in this point of my life, a good start... regrets-free... I'm willing something to get me out of the bed, even if this represents, speak face-t0-face, stand up for myself and my opnions... even if this is a step on the darkness, even if this is a scream at sometimes... even if... Because, as I said in some ancients posts... I do believe that having A goal, is so much better than having SOME goals. And I like to believe in that... it keeps warm at night. Maybe, for now, I have small targets... like be more self-conceited, more selfish, or like... do not put up people who have nothing better to do, but look themselves on the mirror and see nothing. That's a good thing. Maybe, in the future, I'll buy some bigger plans... like, be more, more, more... I don't know... be more is what I believe. Now I've learned that.
To say the truth... dreams can knock on our doors... maybe we can be today, a lot more than we were yesterday... These little dreams, they can be achieved... day by day.

Ninna... yep, this is me. A little girl who believe that we can fight our challenges and accomplish our dreams each day. I do believe, that today I AM more than I was yesterday. One step at time... That is grownth.

Ninna... Now I speak and stand up for myself.